A letter to my darling blog…
I admit. I abandoned you! I wrote draft posts, waiting for the perfect moment to add pictures, to refine…
and I never got around to ‘perfect’.
Can we draw a veil over that sad truth and move on? Do you think we can rebuild trust and try again?
You know what they say! It’s never too late to apologise!
I have been insanely busy. INSANE, brosephs!
Don’t believe me? Here is what I have been up to in the last 2 months!
STUFF went on at work. Hard stuff. Stuf that had me wondering if I was travelling the right path. Stuff that made me go home at night and burst into tears because I felt so useless. Then, one of the people I respect, one I was preparing to go to for help, and who I feel privileged to have worked with… resigned. And again I was thrown into a tailspin.
Things have improved though. Believe it or not, I feel closer to my career goals than ever, if only by the tiniest fraction of an inch. I live in hope, and that is a good place to be.
I decided to open an etsy shop, to give me something to look forward to — to immerse myself in, and to work towards. I’m still gathering my supplies and waiting for them to be posted out, but it’s been exciting and fun, even if it will end up being a failure that runs at a loss.
I started a Diploma of Financial Planning that, if I were a praying sort, I’d pray over. I don’t want to fail. I want to be a success, and that is hard when I feel lost and confused, and well, bored!
I’ve been to movies. I’ve enjoyed dinners out. I’ve tried to lose weight and succeeded… very, very slowly.
AND! I’ve had a veneer put on.
It’s been tiring, too tiring to look for the beauty in things, and to take the time to find the words to explain. But I’m here now. I’m back, and I’m writing all over again. I hope we can start to get closer again. I’ve missed you!